Thinking Aloud!

Ater reading

this post I was reminded of the time when I was in a
similar situation. This was just after I had given the
AIEEE exam. Earlier my IIT-Screening exam had gone bad
(I did clear it but with a rank much below my
expectations) and I knew that my performance in Mains
will be even worse. But that was not the reason of my
worry as I thought with AIEEE, at least I will be able
to get in some engineering college, achha ho ya na ho.

But I screwed up in that exam also!! What happened was
that due to some stroke of brilliance CBSE people
decided that we should fill our OMR sheets with pens,
instead of the usual pencils…I dunno the reasoning
behind this but as usual I marked one question
incorrectly and in the end I had finished the paper much
before the time…. so while revising I thought ki kyun
naa is question ko theek kiya jaaye and I thought what
if its a pen mark, atleast I can give it a try….the
result was almost a hole in my sheet. After the exam
jitne zyada logon se discuss kiya utna he darta gaya.
Someone would say a machine is gonna check your paper
and it will reject it. Others will sa na na bus us
column ke questions(one third of the whole) ke marks nai
milenge. In the end I was sure that I am not gonna clear
the exam anyways.

Now I knew I was in trouble, I was sure about IIT-JEE
(that its not meant for me) and the only other exam that
I could give that year was DCE entrance exam and as
there were only 15% seats available for people outside
Delhi in that, so I knew it will be really tough. For
few days I was utterly disappointed, I though everything
was lost now and nothing can be done. I was so much fed
up with cramming that the thought of giving the exam
next year never came in my mind….

After a few days, while going for a lonely walk in
evening, one thought came in my mind that instead of
getting worried over things which I cant control, I
should try to analyze all the options that I had…

First of all I thought about the worse that can
happen…..I wont clear IIT-JEE and DCE exam and will be
disqualified in AIEEE, so either I will have to try next
year(something inside me was crying “nai-nai iske zagah
aur kuchh bhi kar lena”) or I will have to drop the idea
of engineering (before that this thing never came in my
mind that I could do something other than engineering
also). Hmmm I guess it wont be as difficult as I earlier
thought…

And what if I the result of IIT-JEE,Mains is better…ya
maybe I will get a seat in some branch like textile or
paper engineering…..aur haan IITs allow ppl to change
branch after getting in……..sounds good maybe I can
do that…….lekin kahan yaar, exam to achha nai hua
thaa!!

What if, I prepare better for DCE ….. hmmm objective
paper hai (in which I usually scored better than others)
and I still have 3-4 weeks to study……….lekin yaar
usmein to seats hi itni kam hain………but 3-4 weeks
fight marne mein jaata hi kya hai, at least I wont loose
anything!

That did it!! The feeling that even in the
worst-case-scenario I will be able to get through
without much trouble and the realization that whatever I
will do from now onwards will only add up to the things
and there was nothing to loose!

So instead of crying over bad luck etc. etc. I prepared
seriously for the DCE exam (this is the only instance in
my whole life when I really studied seriously) and the
result……..I cleared IIT-JEE (though they were
offering Paper and Pulp Engineering only at my rank!!)
the nice people at CBSE dint disqualify me, I got
thousand-something AIR(35th in Chandigarh), and the best
was DCE (180 AIR!!).. so now from a guy who dint have
any hopes, I was the one facing the problem of choosing
form the various institutes!!

 
posted by Sumit Tada @ 9:49 PM

2 Comments:

 
The_Girl_From_Ipanema said…

good job!! motivating post. and
motivating comment.  just that, i’m even more lazier than
you! 

think i’ll have to wait until the weekend yaar, to do some
“creative” scribbling..

 
8:13 AM, March 29, 2006


   

 
MoonWalker said…

I was so totally hoping for a happy ending!

arre yaar, yeh max sahi baat hai..just think of the worst
case scenario and all will be okay….

I feel more sensible now!

btw,

you have posted this post 3 times:D

check karring uskoh!

 
6:32 PM, March 29, 2006