Thinking Aloud!

Its strange how things can change in a single day, in the last post I was talking about so many things that I dont want to do and yesterday I got second placement in the company about which I blogged in my earlier blog. Its a very new company but the work is quite interesting and the package is also good. And in fact being a very new and small company also has its own advantages. So, I will be waiting to get there  And now I again “want to” do soooooo many things!!

In the last post I also said, I dont wanna study for mid-sems, but now I have second thoughts (maybe coz now they are much nearer)

Will update after the mid-sems (that means next saturday). It maybe earlier also, as studying for exams is too boring 

Its strange how things can change in a single day, in the last post I was talking about so many things that I dont want to do and yesterday I got second placement in the company about which I blogged in my earlier blog. Its a very new company but the work is quite interesting and the package is also good. And in fact being a very new and small company also has its own advantages. So, I will be waiting to get there  And now I again “want to” do soooooo many things!!

In the last post I also said, I dont wanna study for mid-sems, but now I have second thoughts (maybe coz now they are much nearer)

Will update after the mid-sems (that means next saturday). It maybe earlier also, as studying for exams is too boring 

Why didn’t I write for the blog for so long???

Why didn’t I post any comments on others’ blog for so long???

Why don’t I want to study for mid-sems???

Why don’t I want to sit for next placement???

Why don’t I start sketching again???

Why dont I start excercising again???

Why can’t i wake up early in morning???

Lots of preparation (again… according to my standards  ), much better performance but the same result!!
But its life…
Though I am disappointed, but few of my friends have been much more upset than me (for one other company and slightly different reason).
Will update with more details soon. Thanks to all those who wished me luck! Hope I will perform better next time 

Well finally, tomorrow I will be sitting for the company. In last 3-4 days, I have prepared well (at least according to my standards) and now I am confident that tomorrow, if the test isn’t very very difficult, then my performance will be satisfactory. Obviously, my 4 days preparation (when it should have been 1-2 months!) means that the chances of my not clearing are much more than my getting through, but still I feel that this is the most that I would have prepared anyways for anything, so this time at least I will not be feeling bad about being careless and negligent.
Though it won’t be my last chance, and in fact the companies coming after this one are paying even more and are equally (if not more) reputed, but still I will feel bad if I don’t clear the test (and then interview) tomorrow, it will be two in row and will mean that my not being prepared is not the ONLY reason for not getting through!
Let’s hope that tomorrow is my lucky day…otherwise, it will again mean more preparation and less competition for the next company 

As was expected, I didn’t clear the test for the company (that is in college today for recruitments) but the problem is that they short listed only 7 people from our class for interview. This means they will take only 2-3 finally. That means still the competition will remain virtually same for the next company and after looking at the test today, now I know it will be very very very difficult for me in the next company (which is also core Electronics Company).
Though there is a feeling inside that why I wasted two whole months (and I still believe that I could have perform better if had prepared even a bit in holidays). But then I also know it’s nothing strange for me. In fact I am still waiting for an occasion where I can say that I had prepared very hard for this thing and now I am getting the results! Most of the times I have got results without any effort. Though in the end I always feel that I could have performed better, but mostly I have been in a comfortable enough position to justify my inaction. Let’s hope it changes soon!
Now I have to complete 2-3 books (of Digital, Analog and Verilog) in 4 days!!
Although even the above sentence shows how bleak my chances are but still everybody has a right to have dreams, how wild they may be and how undeserving they themselves may be! Let me hope that by studying for 4 days I can beat people who have been working hard for 3-4 months!!